from Vienna 10
after week has passed without being able to write News from
Vienna 10. Then, late November, my notebook had to be repaired
(but it was still under guarantee) and I didn’t have it
for more than three weeks - meanwhile it was the middle of December
and Christmas was approaching. So I started the 17th, but only
today (28th) I was able to continue writing. I hope you weren’t
Let’s go back to the beginning of October
Hausa Or Bambara?
The 2nd of October, the courses at university
started again. The first week was a kind of orientation for my
African studies. It was so exciting! The Lord has been really
faithful in leading me to do the right thing. I had been praying
a lot for His leading in choosing my first African language. I
myself had chosen Hausa, out of Hausa, Bambara
and Swahili, but still asked God for his confirmation.
Swahili was excluded from the beginning on, as it’s
spoken in East Africa, which is not my region of interest. Then,
just before leaving for England in July, I got a letter from a
Bible translator in Mali/West Africa I had just been put in contact
with. Coming back in September and looking into Operation
World, I discovered that Bambara is the main language in
Mali. Doing further inquiring, I discovered that Bambara
really is the language mostly spoken in my areas of interest and
not Hausa. So I more and more was directed to Bambara.
Now, looking into my timetable, Hausa was more convenient,
but in my heart I had already chosen Bambara. Still,
I wasn’t convinced. I’m a stubborn person and don’t
easily change my mind. Then, during the first week at university,
all the languages were presented. When I got to know the two professors
teaching Hausa and Bambara, it was the confirmation
to me I had wanted. The one teaching Hausa is chaotic
and without system, the other one really is the opposite, very
organised and logical, and also sympathetic. I could never have
done Hausa with that professor (I later learned that
in his lessons, the students sit on the floor and they learn by
just talking.). The last confirmation came some time later. My
timetable was completely full and I had no idea how I should fill
in 4 more hours of Bambara (6 all together). But, “miraculously“,
I had overlooked Tuesday morning. Those hours were exactly put
into this time-spot.
The 6th and 7th, I went to a seminar called “Set
the captives free“ by Gary Hixson. I didn’t really
learn too many new things, but the more I learned about myself,
or it rather was the confirmation of many suspicions I had had.
I was told that Gary and his wife would meet with people during
the week, but was greatly disappointed when I heard that they
had no more time. This week-end, some things were stirred up and
started troubling me more than ever. With that week-end, a terribly
hard time began. I was on a road downhill that wouldn’t
stop. This pressure on the inside of my wrists and hands increased.
I felt more and more surrounded by darkness and the lack of close
friends increased my depression as I had feared before. The only
highlights were my Bambara-lectures and another lecture that prepares
me for my future service in Africa. Also caring and praying for
others temporarily lifted me up, realizing that it’s more
blessed to give than to receive and that we should “look
to the interests of others“ and “consider others better
than ourselves“ (Phil 2).
One day (Mon., 23rd of October), in the middle
of darkness, sitting in the tram, I suddenly got terribly excited
as it was as if God had given me an encouraging word. I had read
a Christian book with many Bible references and chosen to look
up one verse (which I never usually do). Reading Mt 3:13 - 4:11,
I realized that after Jesus had received power from on high, he
spent 40 days in the desert before starting his ministry with
signs and wonders. There he went through all kind of temptations.
I was wondering why God allowed this dark time
as my only desire was to serve Him and as He had equipped me in
so many ways in summer. Now, I understood that this “time
in the desert“ could also be a kind of preparation for what’s
coming afterwards. Comparing the things that happened to me with
the ways Jesus was tempted, I was able to find a parallel for
each one. That encouraged me very much and gave me hope for later.
I didn’t fully understand that day what the Lord wanted
to tell me but it was about two weeks later when I clearly understood
what God wanted to tell me by that passage. That Monday night,
I was shortly lifted by the possibility of that meaning
... Not Yet
The next day, the darkness was back and still
increasing day by day. The following Friday, I went reluctantly
to the Singles-meeting (what I love most of all my activities,
right after the service), returning home being even more in despair
than before, asking God to protect me of “myself“
as suicidal thoughts were increasing. The following Sunday (29th
of October), I had the strangest service I have ever had. I felt
like a stranger in church and only wanted to leave. In the end,
I didn’t respond to the altar call as I would have normally
done with one like that, but left the church as quickly as possible,
returning home and going to bed, being at the end and crying to
God for help. During those days I wrote some letters to friends
- cries for help - asking them to pray for me. The following Tuesday
(31st of October), I did the only thing that was left to do: I
wrote an e-mail to all my friends, asking them intently to pray
for me. Meanwhile I was considering different methods of suicide
all the time and felt that I was slowly losing all my strength
that was left. I was tired of fighting and was more and more giving
in to what I “heard“. I was afraid of really committing
suicide so I sent this mail. I do apologize to all that were worried
because of that and thank all of you for your prayers.
God Answers Prayer!
During that time, the only hope I had was a couple
in my church. I thought that they would understand me and be able
to help me, but I never managed to seriously address them. After
having sent the mail, I actually started feeling better. The following
Sunday (5th of November), I was still totally down, but I even
responded to the altar call although I didn’t really want
to. Going to the front, this lady (of that couple mentioned) prayed
for me. Nothing happened but I told her of my struggles. I was
downcast by her response and felt as if my hopes had just faded
away. I returned to my seat, tears running down my cheeks as I
considered the implications. Suddenly a girl from the worship-team
came over and asked whether she could help me. I had no idea how
to explain my situation (Maybe you’ve realized that it’s
not very clear here what caused my problems. As it’s rather
personnel, I want to point you again to the book: Released
from Bondage by Neil T. Anderson, which will help you understand.),
but she prayed for me (see Vienna Christian Center).
Then, to my astonishment, the pastor came over and talked to me.
Finally the lady’s husband (the couple mentioned in the
first line) came over and talked to me. I was shocked to realize
that he had the same opinion as his wife, losing the rest of my
hope. But he prayed for me and shortly before he stopped praying,
God broke through into my darkness and filled me with His Spirit
The Road Uphill
I was amazed at how quickly the Lord lifted me
up and put my feet on solid rock again. I came to a deeper understanding
of what that passage meant for me he had given me earlier. Counting
the days since the beginning of October, I even came to the number
40. Now I was full of anticipation what the future would bring.
During the same days of “recovery“, I read some lines
in a book that also encouraged me:
After every calling and envisioning comes
a time of death and burial. It is called preparation, as the Lord
puts our call on the shelf and deals with who we are as people.
During this “in the ground“-time, the reality of the
call leaves us for a time. Therefore, when suddenly someone begins
to restore our call prophetically, it may be the time when the
Lord is opening doors and making things happen.
(from: Graham Cooke, Developing Your Prophetic Gifting)
(I’m aware that those words didn’t really fit my situation
but they encouraged me anyway.)
The same week, we finally went into the halls
of residence for the first time, doing an evangelistic questionnaire.
The 10th and 11th of November, there was a seminar
on Emotional Healing by a team from an American Vineyard-church.
Again, I was amazed at those people who have a such a gentleness
and Christ-likeness! As I was prayed for, the Lord touched me
in the same gentle way and filled me with His sweet Spirit, completely
restoring me from that dark time again.
The Next Shock
During those dark weeks, one thing after the
other had happened to me, having left me wondering. One area had
been the financial. Now, having recovered spiritually, there was
the next shock: the 22nd of November I got an “invitation“
to court. Since my News from Vienna 9, I hadn’t
heard from my father. Now he had gone to court as he wasn’t
able to give us any money any more because of his unemployment.
Getting this letter from court, I was really hurt - not because
he couldn’t pay anymore, but because he hadn’t told
me that he would go to court. I thought, why does he disappoint
and hurt me all the time? I’m glad I can completely trust
you, my Daddy. I immediately rang up my father. He apologized
over and over again and I explained him what I felt. We would
see each other one week later.
Now this very day, before getting the invitation
to court, I got a letter from a friend in England. There was quite
a lot of money inside and I was puzzled. It came so unexpectedly
and I thought of not accepting it. Later that day, I was amazed
at God’s timing and actually relieved to having had received
this gift. Also the same day, my mother finally visited me. I
had wanted to meet with her alone for quite a while. Now this
meeting didn’t turn out very well, humanly speaking, (see
My Mother), but it definitely was a marvellous testimony
as I told her about God’s provision and that I wouldn’t
worry for the future (thinking of the court the following week).
It also was a great testimony to other non-believers and I praise
God and thank the generous giver!
Going To Court
The 28th of November, the three of us had to
be at court: my father, my brother and myself. My brother met
his father for the first time and I was a bit worried about that.
My father showed no reaction at all (and didn’t mention
it later) and my brother only grinned in the beginning (he later
told me that he was embarrassed to have a father like that and
didn’t care at all about seeing his father).
I had no idea about how to pray for that day
at court. My father now receives less money than he used to give
to the two of us. He had already been unemployed for a year, for
which reason he would receive even less money from the government
then. As his savings were nearly gone, he wasn’t able to
pay for us any more and went to court.
Now, 77% of the money I received came from my
father as he had earned a lot (the rest from the government).
I knew that I’d have to be glad to receive half of the amount
I had received so far. Now that would still mean serious problems
as you know about my financial struggles.
So, on one hand I needed as much money as possible,
on the other I knew that my father needed the money as well. How
should I pray?!?! I can’t tell you how glad I was about
the gift of tongues, because He knew what I needed to pray. I
fasted on Sunday and Monday and Tuesday I went to court, surrounded
by the presence of God, being confident that He would turn everything
to the best.
Sitting in front of the judge (who was extraordinarily
nice), each one of us had to say their opinion. Finally he asked
my father what he would suggest to give to us every month. The
amount he named was 20% of the amount I had received so far. I
thought, no way, my fixed expenses every month are already
three times as much. I can’t live on that. I then also
said that aloud as I was asked. When speaking to my brother, the
judge said that as he is in the army at the moment, my father
doesn’t have to give him any money anyway. Only when he’s
finished his service there (in June) and starts studying. So the
judge proposed that my father would give me my brother’s
amount as well as long as he is in the army, meaning 39% of what
I had received so far, which was still not enough. My father assured
again that he would pay more again as soon as he would find a
job and earn money again. Having heard that amount, I immediately
accepted it in my mind/spirit/ heart, not even thinking that I
wouldn’t get far with it. My brother also had to agree.
Then the next problem was, that it was a settlement out of court
which meant that my mother could make troubles again as before.
So the judge suggested that we would sign a paper that we wouldn’t
start a compounding. Finally my brother signed it, and my father
and I agreed that we would trust each other - which was a bit
strange again with my brother. I feared he would accuse me of
changing sides as my grandparents had done (but he didn’t
openly). Leaving the court I was in a dilemma again : Whom should
I ask to drop me at university ? They were both there by car and
I didn’t want to favor anybody. Gladly my brother said he
would go for a coffee first, so my father drove me to university.
I thought, if I had only received the whole amount once more,
I would have greatly recovered financially (I had shortly
shared that thought in front of the judge), when my father suddenly
said, you know, Claudia, I can pay all of it once more, if
it’s only for you (my brother had received more than
I had). Can you imagine my amazement? Isn’t God wonderful?
In the beginning of November, I had applied at
the post office to work in December, every second night through
to the morning (6 pm to 6 am). Unfortunately (now: gladly), it
was too late for that, so I got a job, starting the 27th of November,
working for four weeks till Christmas, Monday to Friday from 6:30
pm to 11 pm. Can you imagine how glad I was after the court to
have this job? What would I have done without that money? God’s
provision is amazing! The only reason for my disappointment was
that I would miss all the Christmas parties, ÖSM-evenings,
So, on Monday the 27th of November I started
working on the assembly in the post-office, sorting different
sorts of letters and especially packets (which was sometimes hard
physical work). As you remember, the following day I went to court,
and the two days I fasted before, I also prayed that the Lord
would put me in the place where He could use me most and where
He’s prepared people’s hearts to receive the gospel.
Unfortunately, there were hardly any opportunities
to get to know people in the short time I had. It was during the
last days that I got to know some people a bit, but not sufficiently
to exchange addresses.
The work itself was okay. I enjoyed it most of
the time. It depended very much on the people that were there.
There was one deeply hurt lady (who had lost a baby) who was slandering
people all the time and talking all evening, another man was a
drunkard and stunk terribly of alcohol, another girl was pregnant
with a terrible lifestyle, another... . Some nights it was overwhelming!
There is so much need out there in the world and they need Jesus
so much! I felt so helpless facing those needs. I wanted to shout
in the big factory hall that Jesus loved them and wants them to
turn to Him and be restored, but felt like a failure because I
didn’t. Shouldn’t I have told the gospel at least
to those around me ? But I was too fearful about their reaction.
Coming home from work, I sometimes fell to the ground before the
Lord, interceding for these people and the world that needs Him
so much, being overwhelmed by the darkness in this world.
During the last two weeks at the post office,
there was even more work to do as Christmas was coming nearer.
In the end, I was glad it was over.
The third week at the post office, I took the
Monday evening off because of the ÖSM-evening I was leading
(see ÖSM). As a result I had to start one hour earlier
the following three days and even one and a half earlier on Friday.
You can imagine, that I was quite tired as a result and looking
forward to the weekend.
Christmas was approaching but I had a hard time
getting into a Christmas mood. I didn’t even have the time
to buy Christmas presents, with my studies during the day and
the work in the evening. Spiritually, I felt great again. The
first week of work (end of November) I was on a spiritual high
with the days of fasting and the court, seeing God’s provision.
Every night, when I came home from work, I had a wonderful time
with the Lord, worshipping Him and interceding for people. In
the beginning of December, I “unfortunately“ got my
notebook back and started working when coming home. But every
night before going to bed (not depending on the time), I pray
for the country of the day in Operation World and really
feel blessed by it. I’m glad I have the discipline to do
that on a daily basis now. In the morning, my quiet times are
never as long as I would like them to be. At the moment, I’m
so hungry for God’s word and Himself that I’m never
content with the time I have.
The 4th of December, the leader of Wycliffe did
the evangelistic talk at the ÖSM. As I was working, I couldn’t
go there. So I met with him the following day (as I hadn’t
seen him for a long time), receiving answers to some questions
and being updated (both of us). I learned that I would be more
tied to Wycliffe-Austria than I would like. My plans were to go
to All Nations Christian College in England after my
studies (2 years) and then to do the year of linguistics at the
Wycliffe-Center in England. If I go with Wycliffe-Austria,
I will have to do the first part of the linguistic-course in Germany
and the third probably in France. But that’s all still in
I also talked with him about the following summer.
I intended to go to Westafrica with Wycliffe as a guest helper,
working in an office somewhere. Now, he showed me a far better
possibility. I have mentioned the Wycliffe-Bible translator I
was put in contact with before summer. Now, God has really put
her on my heart (and the whole area of Mali and Burkina Faso)
and I want to support her in every way possible. So he suggested
me to visit this Bible translator in Mali. That would be more
helpful and interesting for me. Hearing this possibility, I really
got excited as that is what I really want to do. I would be able
to help them (there are two women working) with the household
and at the same time watch their work - and practice my Bambara
and French. At the moment I’m dreaming of doing
that as I still wait for an answer from Mali. If I get her OKAY,
my plans are as following : Flying to Ouagadougou (capital of
Burkina Faso), from there going to the village where she works
(right after the border in Mali, near Mopti), where I would stay
6 weeks and then returning to Ouagadougou where there will be
a IFES-student conference for French-speaking Africa - what a
timing ! - before returning home the end of August, even being
able to work in September. Aren’t these exciting plans?
Of course, humanly speaking, there might be some hindrances, but
I believe I’m in the will of God. The biggest hindrance
seems to be finances. The flight costs more than 1000$ and should
be booked very soon, the injections will cost another couple of
hundred dollars. As I haven’t got the okay from Mali yet,
I’ll still apply as a guest helper for Wycliffe. This would
be a more official short-term-work although I wouldn’t get
to know the work of a Bible-translator. Being in Mali, I could
support the two Bible-translators so that they can work more effectively
and quickly, which means that the Bozo will have the Word of God
earlier. At the same time, it would be a precious time of preparation
You know that I don’t normally do that,
but I do need the help of God’s children to be able to do
His work this summer in Africa. For this reason, if God leads
you, I would be glad to receive your gifts. Please do write “Mali“
so I know it’s for summer. My bank is called: PSK, its number:
60.000, and my account’s number: 73.165.109. Thank you.
Those signs have created some confusion, without
my knowing, till I received an embarrassing letter from the leader
of Wycliffe. As it’s not possible to sign my way on the
computer, I used to put these signs under my name when writing
e-mails. As we’re all brothers and sisters in Christ, I
didn’t see any problems with sending you kisses
(x) and hugs (o). So I do apologize now if there had
been any misunderstandings I don’t know of. I never had
anything special in mind with putting those under my name. But
I do thank the leader of Wycliffe of making me aware of that danger.
The 8th of December was a free day in Austria
(celebrating Mary conceiving Jesus). I was happy to also have
a free evening (they work at the post office 7 days a week 24
hours a day), so that I was even able to go to the Singles-meeting.
It’s amazing, that God still made it possible for me not
to miss what I like most. I didn’t even miss one Singles-meeting!
I was worried most of not meeting any people because of my work
and feeling lonely. But that wasn’t the case at all. I did
meet with people in the free-time left and didn’t feel lonely
at all, especially as God was so close to me.
The 10th of December I sang the special music
in VCC for the first time. (In November I started with my singing
and piano lessons again.) The song was called A World Of Difference
and the words came from my heart as I could easily relate them
to my experiences at the post-office. Unfortunately, the song
was too low (as I have a high voice). In addition to my nervousness,
I rather blowed it (- I also have a very high standard). As people,
I didn’t even know, came to me after the service, telling
me, that they had been touched, I didn’t regret it any more,
even with mistakes.
3rd Meeting With My Father
Leaving the court, we made an appointment for
the 14th of December, when my father visited me in my flat for
the first time, unfortunately without his wife. We had a good
time together, talking a lot about faith again. (see My Father
and My Father’s Parents In England ) Unfortunately,
I haven’t heard from him yet and have no idea when we’ll
The Big Family-Row
The 17th of December, I went to my grandparents’
house to celebrate my grandfather’s birthday with the rest
of the family. Remember that the week before had been an especially
busy week and I really needed some rest. After some time, Heinzi
started accusing and insulting me because I would only come at
6:30 pm instead of 6 pm on Christmas Eve because of the Christmas
service that would be from 4 to 6 pm. He then went on from that
like it’s his way when he has drunk. Then he also offended
my grandfather who got really upset and was about to leave the
place. My mother then started hurting me as well (after having
tried to stop Heinzi), accusing me of different things I really
found unfair. I do all I can to please my family and then am accused
of such things! I couldn’t help but tears started running
down my cheeks as they were going on. I tried to say my opinion
but wasn’t listened to. As I had to leave anyway to go to
the observatory, I left immediately (one quarter of an hour earlier).
I left deeply hurt and not wanting to see them at all any more.
I was terribly scared thinking of the Christmas holidays when
I would spend more time with them, especially with Heinzi drinking
more. Every time I’m going to see my family, I have
to pray before that God would send his angels to surround and
protect me and that He would cover me from top to the toes with
the blood of Christ. The more I pray before, the smaller the danger.
The following day in church I realized that most
people wouldn’t come to the service on Christmas Eve, not
even the pastor. I started thinking and came to the conclusion
that it would be better to go to a service in the morning. My
former English-speaking evangelical church came to my mind and
I decided to go there, seeing my old friends again. Having made
this decision, I was filled with divine joy - which surprised
me as I would miss a service in my beloved church.
The following morning, I rang up my mother to
tell her about my decision. Before I could say anything, she apologized
for Saturday afternoon! I was surprised as that has never happened
before. I explained her again how I felt about these things and
told her that I would go to a morning service, being able to come
to their place at 4 pm as she had wanted. My mother was pleased.
Two days later I met Heinzi again and there was this icy coldness
between us that scared me. As I treated him with love, this coldness
broke and our relationship was restored. Saturday the 23rd, I
went to my family’s house to practice the Christmas program
and later my grandparents told me, that Heinzi had only talked
about me with the best words.
The 18th of December I had my last lecture before
Christmas. After that I quickly started buying all the Christmas
presents, which wasn’t too easy.
The Lord's Gift To Me
Some days before Christmas, I got a wonderful
letter that deeply touched my heart (read My Father’s
Parents In England first). The letter I had longed for for
so long arrived, taking all my doubts away and filling me with
joy. My grandparents in England had sent me a longer letter, answering
the questions I had asked them in my letter.
They both are born-again Christians (they even
sent me a worship-tape and Every Day With Jesus) who
have prayed for our salvation for years. Reading their touching
lines filled me with awe before the Lord as I got to know the
reason He saved me. This big mystery of “just“ finding
an invitation to a sports camp, “just“ going there
and “just“ becoming a Christian the same week, suddenly
was lit and received a purpose for happening. I was deeply touched
by the awareness that I was saved because of years of faithful
prayer on my grandparents’ part (my love for England also
seems to be explained :-) ) and by the lines of faithful Christians
who were genuinely filled with joy as they read about my salvation,
praising the Lord. My grandmother has also written to my father
who himself had said with joy that he would immediately write
back to her. Isn’t that wonderful how the Lord brings reconciliation
and salvation? I want to encourage you all whose family situations
seem helpless. So did and does mine but nothing is impossible
for God! There is still a long way to go with my family, but I
trust in the Lord.
My grandparents have invited me to visit them
in February and I’m looking forward to asking them a thousand
questions and telling them a thousand things. I’m sure this
meeting will even more reveal the greatness of God.
Happy Birthday, Lord!
Returning from my parent’s house, I was
looking forward to my private Birthday Party for Jesus. For a
long time I had waited in anticipation for this special time with
the Lord. I had a small, decorated Christmas tree, lit all its
candles, put on worship music and started worshipping and praising
Him. I had wonderful hours with our Lord and Saviour - that’s
The following morning, I got up “early“,
went to a German-speaking church for half an hour (to see some
people) and then went on to my former church Grace Church
where I had a nice Christmas-service, also seeing some friends
again. Returning home, I decided to celebrate with Jesus again,
as it was His day. So I had even more wonderful hours with the
Lord that afternoon before going to my parent’s house at
4 pm. As I prayed for the time with my family and for the Lord’s
protection, it was as if I saw the Lord placing His angels at
certain places in my parents’ living room. When I later
sat there, I “knew“ where those angels were standing
(three of them) and was really comforted by that.
We then practiced the Christmas program again
(my mother, brother and I at the piano, myself also on the recorder
and the guitar) before Heinzi’s mother and then my mother’s
parents came at 6 pm. We then did the program, opened the presents
and ate turkey for dinner. There wasn’t even one incident!
My brother even gave me a compliment for my voice after I had
sung Joy to the World (he never does that).
The 25th all of us celebrated again in my grandparents’
house, without any incidents again. The 26th I went to my parent’s
house, where we celebrated with Heinzi’s daughter and grand-daughter.
The 28th my mother & Heinzi and my mother’s grandparents
came to my place. Heinzi was here for the first time. We had two
hours of conversation, coffee and cake - and no incidents again.
The 29th, my brother, my mother’s parents and I went to
my father’s parents to celebrate with them As always, it
was terribly artificial and I could hardly stand all the talking
and so on. I was happy when we left 3 hours later. I wished I
could have met with them alone. It’s on my heart to get
to know them and build up a genuine relationship with them. Before
going to their place, I had done a Bible study with my mother’s
parents. It made me very sad, as my so-called “Christian“
grandparents lied to my other grandparents again, behaving in
a “terrible“ way.
I thank you all who knew about my difficult family
situation, especially at Christmas, and prayed for me. I haven’t
had such good Christmas for a very long time. It’s a real
miracle that nothing happened. I’m so thankful to the Lord!
The 27th I wanted to go to the library as I have
a lot of work to do but had to discover that the library is closed
till the 2nd of January.
In the evening, I had the first games-evening
in my new flat again. I used to have them once a month (even as
a non-Christian) as it is a great “evangelistic“ opportunity.
I try to have a balanced number of Christians and non-Christians.
That night we were only five people but we had a good time.
Looking Back: 1995
Looking back to what the Lord has done in my
life this year, I’m absolutely amazed. He has blessed me
so much more than I could ever have dreamed! I started this year
being down and longing for God’s healing touch in my life,
having just heard of the “Toronto-blessing“ and having
read the first book about it. In February, as I was in England,
I went down under the power of God for the first time, which was
the start of a marvellous time of healing, deliverance and equipping
for ministry, and most of all, getting to know our Lord in a much
deeper way - in April the conference in Vienna (with Claudio Freizdon),
in June the conference in Bern (with John Arnott) and in August
the conference in England as highlights.
In February I learned of the salvation of a student
I had witnessed to and prayed for a lot the summer before, shortly
afterwards another friend has clearly become a Christian. Finally
in November the most wonderful thing: Nina, the girl whom the
Lord used to save me, has found new life in Christ !
In July, I met my father for the first time
again. In December finally the marvellous news: my father’s
parents in England are Christians and due to their prayers the
Lord had chosen to save me.
In March, the realisation that I can’t
finish my studies of physics and the overwhelming joy when choosing
African Studies as my second subject, being confirmed again and
again and again in my decision.
In the beginning of the year, impatience till
I would finally get to my place of calling, to Westafrica as a
Bible translator, and not knowing the way there. Now, seeing God
preparing me in every way and even through my studies, giving
me so much joy and patience, even knowing more specifically the
geographical area of calling.
Seeing God’s provision in every way, especially
in the financial, as I move to my flat in April, go to court in
June and November, am given money again and again at the times
I need it most.
I could go on listing one thing after the other
of what the Lord has done this year, but I’ll spare you.
I praise His Holy Name with all of my mind, soul and heart!!!
Next Sunday is New Year’s Eve and after
the service in my church, I will celebrate with a friend from
Graz and others with the Vineyard-church in Vienna. The following
week (the last of the holiday), I’ll spend all day in the
library, preparing some papers I should finish. In the evenings
I’ll meet with some people, e.g. my grandparents for the
Bible Study. The 4th I’ll meet with the first boy-friend
I had had as a non-Christian. I haven’t met him since my
conversion and even on the telephone he always remarks that I
have changed. I think that the Lord has given me a powerful testimony
especially for him, who knew me as a depressive suicidal girl.
The 5th I’ll meet with another friend I haven’t seen
for a long time. The 8th, classes start again and also the time
of exams. I’ll have even more exams than a year ago - I
intend to do 24 hours. The first will be the 16th, then the 18th,
24th, 26th, 29th, and two the 30th. I also have to write three
papers. My last exam will be the 1st of March.
So you can imagine that January will be quite
a busy month. The more I’m looking forward to coming to
England again - Hallelujah!!! Already now I’m dreaming of
the 3rd of February, when I’ll fly to London. I’ll
then go to Bournemouth again, where I’ll participate in
the one-week-conference Waves Of The Spirit (with John
Arnott, Gerald Coates, Wes Campbell, Terry Virgo, David Pytches,
Rob Warner, Noel Richards - and about 6000 Christians - and the
Lord most of all), where I hope to meet with the Lord in a fresh
and special way again, being further equipped to serve Him. The
conference will be followed by the 10-day-trip of the Austrian
student-group, visiting the CU-groups in South Central-England.
Of course, I had to add three more days before flying back the
24th, hoping to meet many friends again. At some stage (maybe
between the conference and the trip???), I’ll also meet
with my grandparents for the first time, looking forward to that
so much!!! (They only live about one hour from Bournemouth.) You
see, I fear that the time won’t be sufficient for everything
I want to do.
Coming back from England, I’ll have to
study for my next exam before classes immediately start again
the 4th of March, together with many other things. Then I hope
to be able to write my News from Vienna 11. You see,
it’s not possible any more to write them monthly, and I’m
not sure what my financial future will look like, so don’t
worry if it takes longer till you receive my News.
I know I'm already too late, but
I still wish you all from all of my heart:
Wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year!
I pray that you would know CHrist and the power of His resurrection
and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like
Him in His death (Phil 3:10).
Barometer of Feelings
:-) :-) :-) :-) :-I
After those dark months in October and November,
the Lord graciously lifted me up again. Although the time was
short in December, I used every single free minute to be with
my Lord, without being content. The more I enjoyed my quiet times
when the Christmas-“holiday“ started the 18th of December.
I have had wonderful times with my Saviour since then. At the
moment, I love to read His Word so much and would like to spend
much more time doing so. I’m sooo hungry for His presence
and for more of Him and am just full of love for Him. Isn’t
The :-I is for some human worries concerning
finances (although I completely trust the Lord) and because of
sleeping problems I’ve had for some time. Whenever I go
to bed and however tired I am, it takes an hour or more till I
fall asleep. Sometimes I get up and “use the time“,
praying and interceding for people till I finally fall into bed
at around 4 am, being able to fall asleep a bit quicklier. Please
pray for clarification of this “problem“. If this
is the Lord’s way of preparing me for intercession (for
what He has called me several times), I need to know that.
I have a joy doing African Studies,
I have never had before at university. The Lord has confirmed
my decision again and again and is about to prepare me for my
service in Africa. What I love most is learning the African language
Bambara, which is spoken by about 30 million people in
Westafrica, as it is an important trading language there. It is
a tonal language with two levels e.g. the word “so“
either means “horse“ (pronounced with a low
voice) or “house“ (pronounced with a high
voice). Whether it’s “a“ or “the“
horse/house is also discerned by the way you pronounce it.
In the other course that will be helpful later,
we’re analyzing an unknown language. There’s a native
speaker who has to answer our questions. Our aim is to be able
to write a little grammar booklet about this language (Gurunsi)
by the end of the year. Interestingly enough, out of 2000 languages
spoken in Africa, this language is spoken in: Burkina Faso ! Another
interesting factor: I was given the Barani Fulfulde in
Burkina Faso to pray for (by the Bibleless People Prayer Project).
Their language belongs to the language group my second language
(Ful) is of. I’ll start learning this (really difficult)
language later in my studies.
As well as those courses (6 hours Bambara,
2 hours Gurunsi), I’m doing 3 hours of African
linguistics, 3 hours of African literature (boring!)
and 2 hours of Politics and Economy in French-speaking Westafrica.
For my French studies, I’m doing 2 hours of French Phonetics,
2 hours of French Regional Studies (boring!) and 2 hours:
The impact of Italian Humanism on France and Germany
(boring!). I’m also doing 4 hours of Italian every week,
although I haven’t been very faithful as it starts already
at 8 am!
I tell you, I enjoy my studies so much (not all
of it) and am even looking forward to my exams. My favorite lectures
had been my highlights in the times of darkness, as I was holding
on to my call and being reminded of the privilege God has given
Beside those 26 hours at university, I also
did my Jazzdance in the beginning (which I had done for
years) but they cancelled it in November as there weren’t
enough people - at least I have 73 steps up to my flat and 104
steps up to the institute for African Studies.
Besides, I’m only doing between 0, 2 and
4 hours a week of tutoring, helping children between 10 and 18
who have problems in school (mainly English and mathematics).
In November I also started having piano and singing
lessons again which I enjoy very much. We’ll see how long
I’ll be able to have them (expensive!).
The rest of my time is filled with ÖSM,
church and meeting people.
Questions I'm Asked
How do you manage doing all those things, being so active
What do you think? I couldn’t do it without
the Lord. I need my time with Him in the morning so much, when
I’m close to my Lord, being strengthened for all that is
lying ahead and having Him organising my day. Without that time,
everything goes wrong and I terribly miss my Daddy. When the quality
of that time decreases, I feel worse day by day and also start
missing Him. Usually, I’m also discontent with the amount
of time I have for Him; I then look at my watch regretting that
it’s already that late. The more I enjoy Sundays! Those
days are totally committed to the Lord. I get up late and enjoy
having a three-hour-quite time, before a break and more time with
the Lord till the service starts at 6 pm. I will miss those Sundays
very much as the Sunday morning services start the 14th of January.
Be assured that as long as you depend on HIM,
and not on yourself; get your strength from HIM,
and not from yourself; look to HIM, and not to
yourself; seek first HIS kingdom and not your
well-being; you will also be able to live for HIM
and not for yourself, being capable of doing everything
through HIM who gives you strength (Phil 4:13).
Be also assured that I, too, am still learning in these areas.
If you have any questions
others might be interested in, let me know.
This year - 1995 - I’ve read 33 Christian
books. One of the last, I’ve recently finished, meanwhile
is a quite popular book which I find really great in the way it
deals with questions many people have today:
Surprised by the Power of the Spirit
by Dr. Jack Deere
Here’s what’s written on the back
of the book :
What caused a professor in a conservative
evangelical theological college to change his mind about the Holy
Spirit so radically that he had to leave ? Much more than an explanation
of why one theologian came to believe in signs and wonders for
today, this is a profound biblical apologetic, arguing carefully
and courteously for the view that the Holy Spirit’s supernatural
gifts did not cease in New Testament times. And Dr. Deere serves
Christians on both sides of the debate, as he marks out pitfalls
which threaten to hinder the present-day supernatural ministry
of the Holy Spirit.
Sigrid / Nina
In my News from Vienna 9 I completely
forgot to tell you about something that happened in September.
Nina (two years ago she changed her real name
Sigrid into Nina as she didn’t like it - but I have a hard
time getting used to it) is the girl who found the invitation
to the ÖSM-sports camp in summer 1993, where we both went
and where I gave my life to Jesus. I then immediately went to
Paris where I studied for five months and coming back, she left
to work abroad. So we didn’t see each other very often after
my conversion, but the more she saw the way I changed. I rather
felt helpless about her as she seemed to love her life of freedom
so much, reading her letters. Then in September, she came to Vienna,
and “by chance“ I was at home as she rang at the door.
She told me that she wasn’t happy with her job (she now
works 400 km from Vienna) and thought of writing a thesis (to
get a doctor-title) on the topic of communication with God. She
asked me a lot of questions and I realized that her interest was
genuine. I testified of all the Lord had done in my life since
May and she attentively listened. I then gave her several books
and cassettes. I wasn’t really keen on praying for her but
asked whether she would allow me to do so. So I prayed for her
salvation, asking the Holy Spirit to show her Jesus and to let
God’s Kingdom come in her life. As I prayed for her, God’s
presence was so strong and I could feel His anointing but didn’t
really know what it meant. So I stopped praying and she returned
to Salzburg. She told me she would be in Vienna in November.
The 12th of November, after an extraordinary
service in my church, I suddenly saw her. She said she would have
some questions and finally I asked whether she had made a commitment
for Jesus. She said yes but I could hardly believe it. Too often
I had heard that. So we met during the week and discussed several
questions she had - and I quickly realized the way God had changed
her. She was a completely new person in Christ! I was amazed.
Is there any greater miracle than that? To see somebody being
born again to life in Christ?! I can hardly recognize her. We
prayed together for each other and for Yvonne, who is also a friend
of hers - that was so touching! To pray with a friend who, after
more than two years of prayer, can be called sister because of
the amazing grace of God who chose to answer my prayers. I was
greatly encouraged by Nina’s salvation. After having left
Vienna in September, she started reading the books and while reading
Released from Bondage by Neil T. Anderson (again!), she
made a commitment. It’s so wonderful so see her grow, it’s
only a shame she’s not in Vienna. The time in November was
so short. Nina came to VCC and the Singles-group and enjoyed the
time there very much. As she is not happy with her job, she’s
also looking for a job in Vienna. Of course, I would love her
to be here but please pray that the Lord would put her wherever
He wants. Pray also that she would grow quickly and especially
that her faith would be grounded in the word. I was able to give
her some contacts in the area where she is now working. I haven’t
seen her for Christmas yet but hope to do so next week. Please
pray also for her protection as a baby Christian.
Who are you?
I want to introduce to you the people who receive
my News from Vienna. Today I present to you:
Caroline comes from Fairlie/Ayrshire near Glasgow
in Scotland, studies French and German in Edinburgh and is just
about to spend her year abroad in Graz/Austria.
Caroline was part of the IFES-summer team in
Vienna in July 1994 where we met for the first time. Our friendship
really developed afterwards as we both like writing and wrote
many long letters to each other. Caroline has been my most faithful
penfriend (unfortunately that has changed recently). We had a
wonderful weekend together in the beginning of November when she
came to visit me. She is a real blessing to me.
I got up early one morning
and rushed right into the day.
I had so much to accomplish
that I didn’t have time to pray.
Problems just tumbled about me,
and heavier came each task.
Why doesn’t God help me ?,
I wondered; He answered,
You didn’t ask.
I wanted to see joy and beauty,
but the day toiled on grey and bleak.
I wondered why God didn’t show me, He said, But you didn’t
I tried to come into God’s presence,
I used all my keys at the lock.
God gently and lovingly chided,
My child, you didn’t knock.
I woke up early this morning,
and paused before entering the day.
I had so much to accomplish
that I had to take time to pray.
During the last months, I had hardly seen her
and our relationship had become quite superficial. As Nina/Sigrid
became a Christian, the Lord also stirred my heart for Yvonne
again. It was wonderful to pray for her together with Nina! Shortly
afterwards, I met with Yvonne and I had the best conversation
I have ever had with her. I asked her opinion about Nina’s
conversion and told her how it had come about and what I had told
her about what the Lord had done during the last months. In the
end, she even made a comment (which she usually never does), saying,
that she just doesn’t have an opinion about God, not being
interested in Him. I then told her about the love of God and that
He also wants to give her all of this love, healing her hurts.
Before she left, I prayed for her, but she didn’t show any
reaction. Since then, the situation is as before. I don’t
see her very often. For Christmas, she came to the games-evening
and I gave her the book Released from Bondage. Please
pray that the Lord would open her eyes (as He has done with Nina)
as she reads those testimonies of people finding freedom in Christ.
you ever make it in the Christian life, it won’t be because
you are a good follower. It will be because my Son is a good leader.
Put your confidence in his ability to lead you, not in your ability
prophecy through Mike Bickle
At certain times there seemed to be some progress,
but Satan has totally blinded him so that he still says Jesus
is not the solution for his darkness. Some weeks ago he then said
that, through a conversation, he had come to the conclusion that
he wasn’t a Christian at all (he had thought he was a little
Christian) and that he now is convinced that there is no God.
For that reason he would stop coming to church and the ÖSM.
I couldn’t believe what I heard! Since then, he has still
come to church and tried to talk to him again, without results.
He also admitted again that he is still in love with me, which
complicates the situation furthermore. Please pray, that God would
open his blind eyes and reveal His love to him.
After the one time she had come to church, I
didn’t see her for a long time. I tried to reach her again
and again without results. Finally, I did reach her, and again
I saw her several times, before she didn’t come any more
again. Since then I haven’t achieved to reach her.
Viola is still very open and seeking but she’s
also hurt and has a hard time accepting that somebody could be
interested in her. Please do pray that she would come again, that
I would persevere in trying to reach her and that she would be
able to accept God’s love for her.
My Heart's Desire
What I desire most, is, that I would get to know
the Lord in a deeper and more intimate way so that I would be
more effective in my witnessing and ministry, so that people would
be saved. I am tired of seeing people reject the gospel and mock
Jesus instead of receiving His life. My heart’s desire is
also that there would be further reconciliation in my family and
I long for the day, when I’ll pray together with my brother
for the salvation of the rest of the family.
God's Timing Is Perfect
If I hadn’t done this last year of physics
- one of our most-committed ÖSM-workers wouldn’t
- we wouldn’t have the room where the ÖSM meets
- I couldn’t have had Bambara as my first language as
it’s the first year you can take it as a first language
IF I hadn’t met my father in July, the
time at court would have been a disaster and the outcome completely
IF Sam hadn’t joined the IFES-team in
Vienna, I wouldn’t have been able to go to the conference
in England where God has done so much in my life.
IF ... IF ... IF ... IF ... IF ... IF ... IF ... IF ...
The very first night, God put this black woman
from Zaire on my heart. At 10 pm we have a 10min-break and I realized
that she was all alone while the others sat together. I had also
realized before that the others weren’t very kind to her
and that she was quite bitter. So I went over and started a conversation
with her, that was hard-going. She didn’t seem interested
to talk with “one of those whites who looked down on her“.
She told me she would sometimes go to a catholic church but avoids
free churches. That was our first conversation the first day.
We have never had a conversation like that the following weeks.
I felt that she must have had some bad experiences, maybe with
sects (she once mentioned the Mormons), as she’s really
allergic to all Christian things. I felt, it was important to
gently build up a relationship with her and that’s what
I did during those weeks. It wasn’t too easy. You can imagine,
studying during the day, working in the evening, and after that,
at 11 pm, I had 10 min. in the underground to talk to her. As
the end of the four weeks was approaching, I feared that she wouldn’t
give me her telephone number. She didn’t seem interested
in having a friend for longer although she was glad during the
four weeks to have somebody to talk to. I was praying a lot for
her during those four weeks and was happy when she gave me her
telephone number the last day (she had had mine for three weeks
already). I had ordered a New Testament in her mother tongue but
didn’t receive it before Christmas.
Florence is married but her husband is momentarily
working in the States for six months (having done his first).
She misses him and doesn’t want to do anything because of
that. Her husband is Nigerian and therefore, the two speak English
together (I speak French with her). I had wanted to invite her
to our African Fellowship but there was no real opportunity. I
want to do some time and go there with her. Please pray for her
My Brother Ronald
The 1st of October my brother started doing his
compulsory time of 8 months in the Austrian army. His first weeks,
which he spent in Graz, were very hard. One day he phoned me (which
is very unusual) to ask whether I could pick him up in Graz the
last day so that he wouldn’t have to stay another night.
So, after my last lecture, I drove the 2 hours down there. I was
quite tired and wondered how the journey back would be. We had
already had the first snow (end of October) and the streets seemed
a bit dangerous. When he got into the car (at 9 pm), I said, “I’m
sorry but I just have to pray shortly as I’m really tired.“
I did and he interrupted me after the second sentence.
Being back in Vienna, he immediately became
the old Ronald again: hardly speaking with me and attacking me
wherever possible. Only through my grandparents I learn what’s
going on in his life. I miss my brother so much and feel as if
he’s died. I would say that he is the person I love most
on this earth.
During the Christmas holidays, he was mostly
really nice to me, as he hasn’t been for a long time. But
he assured again and again that that would only be for the time
of the Christmas-holiday. Then he wouldn’t have a sister
and therefore not speak with me anymore, like before.
My Mother's Boy-friend
My relationship to him had also changed after
England. I mentioned last time one of those “incidents“
when holy anger had come up within me. Some weeks ago, one of
those happened again. Heinzi started shouting at me and insulting
me because I still have stuff in my former room in my parents’
flat. As they were just about to get new windows, he wanted everything
out. I was already about to leave when he started threatening
me. I suddenly had this sentence in my mind which, I believe,
God wanted me to speak out: The times, when you can threaten
me, are over. It was a kind sentence, spoken in love. I wasn’t
afraid and rather smiled, but I didn’t have the courage
to speak it out, even standing at the door. Heinzi has some kind
of power over me I can’t explain. He exercised authority
over me that has to be broken. Leaving the flat, I broke into
tears, like always when Heinzi does something. But I quickly regained
control with Jesus’ help.
As mentioned in News from Vienna 9,
coming back from England, I had a love for my mother I had never
had before. I missed her and wanted to be with her. In the middle
of November the two of us finally managed to meet alone. It was
the very day I had received the “invitation“ to court.
I had already intended to ask some questions about the time when
my father had left and the inconsistencies with the two versions.
So, with the summons to court, the opportunity easily opened up.
My mother is not the person that talks about things but she rather
gets upset. So she got upset till she finally got tears in her
eyes as she said, “You have no idea what it was like.“
Then tears started running down my cheeks as well. I then said,
“I miss you.“ “It’s you
who has gone away from me.“ “Because you pushed
me away because of my faith.“ “Because you mention
it every second sentence.“ More tears came into my
eyes. I also had a real opportunity to witness to her without
her interrupting me immediately. I asked whether she couldn’t
see how I had changed positively and said that God had done so
much in my life and that He wants her to know Him as well. She
then turned back to me and said, “You will never
convert me to your faith.“ She said that with such conviction
and a sparkle in her eyes, that it ran cold down my back and more
tears came into my mind. Then she said, “I’d have
more reason to cry. If that makes you cry you should
be sent into a mental hospital as your father.“ (Because
of my mother, my father had spent three weeks in a mental hospital
when they had been married.) I was so hurt by all the things she
had said, so that I was glad when she left. I fell on my knees
and cried before the Lord, interceding for my family.
Since then, the situation has changed again.
This wonderful love, I had had for her, is gone and it’s
like it was before. There is more distance then ever between us.
There is nothing we could talk about. When I
meet her, she talks about their hobby (dancing), with all the
details I’m not interested in, and never asks how I am and
what I do. I myself hardly dare telling anything any more, only
talking about university and the observatory.
My Mother's Parents
We started our weekly Bible study in October,
doing Meeting Jesus (series of Lifebuilder Bible
Study), consisting of 13 individual studies taken from the
gospels. So far we’ve done the first six. I always translate
the material into German and then print it out for them. Like
that they can easily follow the questions and keep the sheets.
It has been 13 months now (including the 3-month-break
in summer) that we’re doing the Bible study and I thought
I would see some progress (there certainly is some progress),
but recently I got slightly discouraged when a discussion arose.
We had just had our Bible study, when my grandfather started again
saying that all earnest believers of whatever faith will be saved.
I then challenged him as he says he believes the Bible is God’s
Word and Jesus is his Lord. He answered by calling me fanatic.
I really got angry by all his “holy“ talking and denying
Jesus at the same time. They both got upset when we started talking
about my father. They hate him and accused me to change sides
by defending him.
I usually ask after the Bible study whether
there is anything to give thanks for or to pray for (I always
get the same answer), and then I pray shortly. Last time, as my
grandfather told me what I should pray for, it suddenly turned
out to be a prayer for itself. So he said Amen in the end.
In the end of September/beginning of October,
I tried several times to meet up with my father but it never worked.
Then I got tired of phoning him all the time, trying to meet with
him. So, unconsciously, I didn’t phone him any more. Then,
the 22nd of November, I got this “invitation“ to court,
because my father wasn’t able to pay the alimony for us
any more. I immediately phoned him up. He apologized again and
again and I assured him that I understood, but I also told him
that it hurt me that he hadn’t told me before that he would
do that. I was really disappointed again. One week later, we met
at the court (see Going To Court). That was the 3rd time
that I met him. We then made an appointment to meet the 14th of
December, last Thursday. He came (without his wife) to my flat
where we spent two hours together. We talked about different things
and soon about faith. I was a bit disappointed when he told me
that he had studied everything and then set up his faith, being
convinced of its accuracy today (mainly Hinduism and New Age thoughts).
He’s had some bad experiences with “Christians“
so that he has an aversion to everything Christian. But he still
likes to talk about faith. I wanted to give him a great book,
but he refused. At least he has got Mere Christianity
by C.S.Lewis (I had sent to him in July) which he had started
reading. Unfortunately he has problems reading as he needs glasses.
So, it was a really good time with my father and we said we would
meet again between Christmas and New Year, hopefully the three
of us (his wife included).
My Father's Parents
I neither phoned them nor heard from them. The
29th of December I’ll see them again, together with my brother
and my mother’s parents. These meetings are always characterised
by suspicion and hypocrisy - I hate them so much!!! Please pray
that the good start made with them before summer wouldn’t
stop here. (for more see Family Celebrations)
My Father's Parents
PRAISE GOD! My expectations
were exceeded! Weeks ago I wrote to my grandparents in England,
mainly to my natural grandmother. I told her that I had become
a Christian some years ago and that I had just met my father for
the first time because of that and that I wanted her to write
to her son, so that they could be reconciled as well. My father
was 14 (31 years ago) when she had left, without really staying
in contact. My father had been wanting to write to her but didn’t
have her address. A week ago, I got a letter from England (which
in itself is not uncommon). It was a Christmas card from them,
“Wishing you all the Best for a very
Happy Christmas and I pray yours be as happy and joyful as
you have made ours. God bless you. Love from both of us. Your
Added was a calendar with verses for each day
and a sticker saying, “Smile, Jesus loves you“. What
do you think? I immediately thought they must be Christians. Of
course, they could still be nominal Christians?! Maybe I wasn’t
the first Christian in my family but the first fruit of their
prayers ?! I wonder why they didn’t write more. I’ll
now write them again, asking all the things I need to know. Hopefully
it will work out in February to meet with them.
When my father came, he asked me whether I had
given her his address. She had sent him a Christmas card, including
an Every Day With Jesus-calendar for next year. He said
he would immediately write back to her.
See The Lord’s Gift To Me for
what happened next.
beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good
news, who prcclaim good tidings, who proclaim salvation.
But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness,
and all these things will be given to you as well. (Mt 6:33)
The Lord is faithful! He’s shown that
to me again and again during the last months.
In October I started double-tithing again after
the summer-break. Although it wasn’t easy, I just had so
much joy giving to the church and people in need. I tell you,
it’s worth! I hardly spent any money on food, even being
hungry some days as nothing was there. I couldn’t understand
that every time I seemed to recover a little financially, something
would happen to me. The big shock came when the annual service
of my car (end of October) cost 500$ ! I couldn’t believe
that (nothing had been wrong!), but after some inquiries I was
told, it’s a normal price. Now, not even having be able
to eat properly, I had some problems, but I was able to bring
the amount together and pay with a short delay. Now my just improving
situation was worst again. Again, I hardly spent any money on
food and certainly not on any unnecessary things (like cinema,
cafés, etc.). Because of that I also went to the post-office
applying for the job and because of that I was unhappy not to
be able to work every second night as intended (see Post Office),
which would have meant much more money. As mentioned (see The
Next Shock), I then got the “invitation“ to court
which was my next shock : I wouldn’t receive that much money
any more. Already struggling now, I was tempted to worry but God
calmed me by the generous gift He gave me the very same day and
another generous gift I received two weeks after having been to
court. Without those two gifts, I would have....?..... .
Now, I have been working and have received some
money at Christmas, but how far will I get with it ? I have no
idea. I haven’t received the money for the work yet and
have lost the oversight a little at the moment. I do know that
the Lord has amazingly provided all I needed so far but also that
I am in serious troubles if my father doesn’t find a job
very soon. Please pray for him finding a good job soon.
So if you don’t receive my News from
Vienna that regularly any more, don’t worry.
I used to have my e-mail at the university of
economics with the address firstname.lastname@example.org.
Now, there had been a significant delay at the main university
which caused a lot of problems (also for many other students),
so that I wasn’t able to enroll in the university of economics
in time. For this reason I lost my e-mail there with the 1st of
November. This was even worse as it was the day before that I
had sent out my worrying e-mail with the cry for help
(see ...Not Yet). I do apologize for having increased
your worries because of that.
I now have e-mail at the main-university although
you can’t compare it with the university of economics. The
system is bad and you have to wait for half an hour at least to
get a free computer. For this reason I don’t go there very
often, but in March I’ll be back at the university of economics.
Then it will be easier again to write e-mails. My e-mail address
now is :
Vienna Christian Center
I thank you for your prayers concerning VCC for after having sent
out News from Vienna 9, I realized a drastic change for
some time. That one night after the service (see God Answers
Prayer!), as I returned to my seat after the altar-call,
suddenly a girl from the worship-team came over to me. She asked
me whether she could help me. I had no idea how to explain her,
so she just prayed for me. Coming back from England, I had already
thought of that possibility and two weeks later, we had dinner
together in my flat. I hoped it would be the start of a friendship
but unfortunately, everything’s like before now.
Tears were still running down my cheeks, when
the pastor suddenly came over and asked what was wrong. I explained
a little, he said some encouraging words, and left again. I was
totally surprised!!! I would have never expected that from the
pastor. Then one of the elders I appreciate came over and prayed
At one of the ÖSM-evenings, another person
from the worship-team was there and for the very first time (after
nearly a year) we really talked. I was uplifted by that as it’s
especially on my heart that the worship team really forms a team
of brothers and sisters bound together by the love of Christ.
Every other Friday, we have a Singles Group,
where mostly people in their twenties meet. I tell you, after
the service, it’s what I love most (of my activities). It’s
great worshipping, discussing, eating, talking, etc., together.
At the moment, we’re studying the book Come Holy Spirit
by David Pytches, in order to serve God more effectively.
Some of us will also be in the ministry team we’re just
about to form, that means we’re praying for people who come
forward in the end of the service. I’ve already had several
opportunities to pray for people in need and am glad that God
is working sovereignly and teaching me.
This time now is really important in the life
of VCC. The church started 1987 with 10 people meeting (today
about 300) and from January on, there will be membership. Then
we’ll also start having a morning service, doing the Alpha-course
to start with. We found wonderful facilities in the Inner City
with space for 180 people. We’ll see how many of those coming
in the evening really see VCC as their home church (a lot of people
are from other churches, coming additionally to VCC in the evening).
Then it will also be easier to know everybody and be committed
to each other. I’m really excited!
The Bible is Scripture and quite wonderful.
To be able to read about the heart and character of God; who he
is; what he is like; the things he can do. What a wonderful gift
the Lord has left us. All Christians should have a profound love
of Scripture. We should however save our adoration and real reverence
for the person of the Living Lord Jesus. The Bible is not the
fourth member of the Trinity. How sad that many people put the
Bible before the person of the Holy Spirit. They elevate Scripture
to a level where they deny the person and the work of the Spirit
in today’s church.
(Graham Cooke, Developing Your Prophetic Gifting, England
I have to affirm that it is
not at all my intent to offend anybody with a different theological
doctrine, but to make people think about what they belief.
(Austrian Student Mission)
The first week of October, we had a wonderful
party to start the academic year with. The following weeks, we
had a few good evangelistic talks and some outstanding ones, whereas
the number of good conversations was rather low.
Our team at the main university has significantly
grown in numbers what makes me very thankful. There are two really
committed new workers which joined us (because of my perseverance)
and another that joined us the term before (after a year of being
invited by me), who has taken some responsibility off my shoulders
for which I’m really thankful. Still, I’m quite busy
with coordinating the English-Austrian prayer-link, writing the
prayer requests for the ÖSM-prayer letter, organising the
weekly book-table and weekly prayer-breakfast, going to a planning
meeting for all of Vienna every second week, ... . Once a month
we have also had a prayer meeting (with hardly any people). Next
semester, the main program will be quite different. We’ll
have six evangelistic talks, one monthly international evening
and one monthly evening for the workers (no more prayer meetings),
as we try to focus more on relationships.
In November, we finally started going into the
halls of residences, doing an evangelistic questionnaire, on a
weekly basis. We really had great conversations and again, I was
amazed at what a difference it makes to pray for people after
a conversation. Sometimes, as I pray, the presence of God suddenly
is so strong I can feel His anointing on me, but I don’t
know yet how to react to it. What does it mean? It was the same
as I had prayed for Nina - and she became a Christian.
Our new leaders, Bob & Sue Dawson, are still
about to get to know the situation in Austria, having settled
well in Vienna. I miss our former leaders very much, whom I appreciated
a lot. Although relationships are very important for Bob &
Sue, I have the impression that they lack more than last year.
But that might be subjective.
During the last months (like before), I again
questioned and prayed about my commitment in the ÖSM. One
Friday in November, after our planning meeting, I felt very bad.
I wasn’t glad with all changes and felt that I would rather
be distracting than helpful for the evangelical ÖSM. The
next day, we had a planning meeting for all of Austria. My feelings
were the same as the day before. It was the first time I felt
like that when meeting the students from the other towns. I even
felt like a stranger and wondered whether that could be an answer
to my prayers. The following day in church, I went for prayer.
After some time, the one praying for me suddenly prayed that God
would “show me His heart of compassion“. I was surprised.
Why did he pray that for me ? It was totally out of context.
In December, I should lead my second evening
this semester. The speaker was supposed to be the pastor of my
church (on Does God speak today - and maybe even to me?).
It was amazing how I got this one night free at the post-office
but one week before the talk, the pastor learned about a very
important meeting he had to go to that very night.
Now, the very same day, Eric Simons went to university
to preach the gospel to some students. He “happened“
to pass by at the ÖSM-book table and still the same the day,
phoned the pastor for inquiries about the ÖSM. Now the pastor
knew Eric and asked him to do the talk instead.
This day, when all those things happened, was
the day after I was prayed for that God would show me His heart
of compassion. The following day, I phoned Eric and discovered
that he is working with the missionary society Heart of Compassion.
I was amazed! Could that be a sign of God? Was this the long waited-for
answer to prayer? Had this prayer been prophetic unknowingly?
Finally, Eric did the talk and it was great!
Christians as well as non-Christians were touched. Even I, doing
the translation into German, was stirred to seek the Lord more
deeply. Coming home, I had a wonderful time with Him as my hunger
for God had been lit in a fresh way.
Eric Simons especially has a heart for students
and wants to win them for Christ. Since the talk, I have been
praying for more direction from the Lord for how to work with
him (or not). Now I have just had a wonderful time with Eric,
his wife Marianne and their new baby Joshua David. The Lord really
has spoken to me there and I believe it’s His will for me
to work together with them. Of course, there are more questions
than answers at the moment but I’m excited by the vision
Eric has and share his feelings. Please do pray for wisdom and
discernment, as to what to do in the coming months. I feel that
my energies would be far better used with Heart of Compassion
than with the ÖSM (maybe there can also be some kind of cooperation).
In the ÖSM, I so often feel as if the Lord’s fire in
my heart is thrown into a pool filled with water - which isn’t
necessarily cold. Please, don’t misunderstand me. I don’t
want to judge the ÖSM in any way, but I do want to be effective
for the Lord and I don’t want my only reason to be with
the ÖSM to be that I was saved through them.
In November I signed the contract with the observatory
and I now assist about three guided tours a month. I enjoy it
very much and at the same time, I earn a little bit of money.
In the middle of November, I asked a girl in
the ÖSM to be my prayer partner and she agreed. Since then
we’ve only met once and I think, we don’t really fit
together. Now, there are also two other people I could meet with
for prayer; one, being a student, the other, being a wonderful
woman of God and mother. Would you please pray for wisdom as to
with whom to meet for for prayer?! We’d probably not meet
before March anyway.
* salvation: Yvonne, Alex, Viola, Florence
* strength, wisdom and growth for Nina
* my family
* wisdom concerning ÖSM / Hearts of Compassion
* strength for my exams in January
* good rest and sleep
* my father finding a job!!!
* my plans for next summer
* the conference from the 5th to the 9th of February
News from Vienna is a letter to all
my friends that was started because of the impossibility of
writing to 80 friends individually about all
that is happening. Please forgive me any mistakes in the midst
of 61.413 signs News from Vienna 10
Tel.: (+43-1) 40 70 957
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I hope the long time of waiting till you received
my News from Vienna 10 was worth it. I thank you for
your faithful prayers, even when you didn’t hear from
me, and assure you of my prayers for you. I’m at least
blessed the same way you are by reading my News, as I read your
letters. Thank you all for your friendship.
I pray that out of His glorious riches
He may strengthen you with power through His Spirit in your
inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through
faith. And I pray that you may have power to grasp how wide
and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know
this love that surpasses knowledge - that you may be filled
to the measure of all the fullness of God. (Eph 3:16-19)
All my love in Christ,
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