last five weeks have been incredibly intense, bringing us all to
the breaking point, barely keeping our heads above
the waters, and sometimes they would go under. It's been weeks of
craziness, of question marks, of shock, of confusion, of darkness,
of discouragement, and reaching the end of seeming dead end streets
with nowhere to go. We've been hard-pressed on every side, from
outside, from inside, from the left and right, and have struggled
to stay alive and sane.
car, guitar, computer, and other stuff, children in rebellion, team
members in childish rebellion, interpersonal conflicts everywhere,
barely keeping our daily operations going. The rising heat, unfinished
house, and lack of money contributed their part.
thinking about leaving, both team members considering leaving, and
myself considering the options, but leaving was not one for me,
but I couldn't find one at all.
the midst of all this, the Lord poured out His Spirit on us in our
weekly prayer/worship meeting on February 29th.
It was the end of our three weeks of just worshipping God. Every
night we had gathered for an hour, and our efforts to worship Him
were often pretty pitiful. However, God measures in a different
Friday night His new wine suddenly filled us, and all we could do
was laugh in His presence, as He refreshed us in
the midst of the battles. The battles continued on Saturday, but
we gathered anyway to seek His face, and again His refreshing came
down. The next battle arose that very night, and continued on all
day Sunday, and again we gathered to worship, and He came down.
Some of the kids started to open up and were touched as well.
been praying and crying out and paying the price for God to pour
out His Spirit for years, and as I saw these first few drops, hope
started to rise within me, and I sought His face even more, crying
out for Him to come down. Monday night was the fourth night. Our
village pastor had come to town, and was touched powerfully. He
had also been in intense warfare the days before and was refreshed.
5 (Tue) came around, and no one showed up to worship God. After
an hour of worshipping Him by myself, Paul joined me. The next day
no one showed up, and I was grieved at their lack of hunger for
been desperate for more of God for months, and even years - really
from the time I was saved. But I cannot give my hunger to anyone
else. I will do whatever I have to do, and can only pray the others
will get ruined for His presence as well. You need to taste Him
once so that you'll never be satisfied with less again.
the trials and tribulations continue, and I'm just very tired. It
was easier with His refreshing every night. I'm praying for wisdom
more than for anything else, wisdom to lead these people and make
right choices. I sure feel very inadequate, and in fact, the outpouring
started after two intense days where I grieved over my lack of love
and repented and asked Him to change me.
you want to read details of this outpouring, and the trials going
on, I encourage you to read my blog. Read the last few days leading
up to February 29th when the oupouring started, and then the first
few of March. If you'd like to receive the blog in your
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purchased our 2002 Toyota pick-up truck last year in July, and have
been repairing it constantly. The mechanic even didn't understand
why, and one time he saw a twisted part and said he had never seen
anything like that all his life.
few weeks ago - the day after a major repair - the car simply stopped
running and wouldn't start up again. We took it to a new mechanic
that had been recommended to us, who told us there was nothing that
could be done. He didn't know why the engine was dead - there was
no logical explanation for it.
only choice was to buy a new engine and put it
in. Life was really hard without the car, as several kids needed
to be taken to school and picked up four times a day, and Elisabeth
brought to our property to cook. We spent much money on taxis, while
they were working on the car.
no money whatsoever, the only thing I could do was take money for
solar panels I was gonna pay and use it and make debts at the Austrian
bank. Still it took about 10 days until we had our car back running,
and it cost unbelievable $3000. Thank God we have
it back and can get around again!
with the move, and then the lack of car, we've been unable to do
any ministry to street children. We were gonna
start again yesterday, but more unhappy circumstances made that
impossible. We started going to the bus station to hand out food
again on Friday.
all the trials and tribulations, things are not going that well
ministry-wise either. Our church is in pretty bad
shape, and so is our team. However, the revival in the villages
continue, and they giving us a loud Macedonian call to come again
to heal the sick and preach the gospel.
is approaching, and we are doing three nights of events. We're showing
the MATTHEW Jesus film the first, the PASSION OF THE CHRIST the
second, and have a big Easter service on Sunday.
have never felt so weak to do anything, and yet that is when God's
strength is made perfect. We totally depend on Him, since there
is nothing I can do. I need His help with the smallest things, but
I also know He loves that.
& FINANCIAL PARTNERS
are in dire need of both. With all the crazy things going on, we
need people to hold us up in prayer. And financially
we have hit the bottom - I'm not even talking about construction.
We had to stop all work for lack of finances weeks ago. We still
don't have a toilet, shower, running water, windows or fans in our
house. But worse than that, we need funds for food, gas, and basic
amenities. Where are those who could support us on a monthly
basis? Still only a third our budget is covered every month.
Sponsorships - All our kids have sponsors right now,
praise God, I just want to remind you that we feed about 60 people
nearly every day, and pay for 35 children to go to school. At
Easter we'll be able to give out 7 bags of rice to widows or needy
families, thanks to the German NGO CCARA.
- The Lord's been speaking to me about marriage, and
I believe the time is approaching. So if you know anyone around
my age (turning 35 soon) who is called to ministry in Africa,
let me know :-).
in April - I'm spending the month of April in Austria.
I'm looking forward to flee the heat and be a blessing to my country.
If you'd like to hear me share or preach, please check my itinerary
on my CALENDAR
page. I still have some openings to accept invitations as well.
Baker - I'm flying to Los Angeles for a few days in April
to be with my spiritual Mom Jill Austin at her conference, and
connect with Heidi Baker who is one of the speakers. I've felt
an urgency for that connection, and believe it will make a difference
in Mali. I'd like to go to Mozambique and see for myself how she
manages things with thousands of orphans.
he'll do it again, rescuing us as many times as we need rescuing.
You and your prayers are part of the rescue