Oh how I love
the glory! How I love to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord! How I
love to behold HIM, my Beloved, to get lost in His glorious embrace!
What an awesome verse this is, what an awesome promise, what an
awesome path ahead of us! Do you long to be changed from glory to
glory? What do you want to change into? You become what you behold.
You behold what's on your TV screen, guess what you will look like.
You behold what's on your computer screen, guess what you will look
like. You behold Jesus, guess what you will look like. Paul talks
about beholding the GLORY of the LORD. Wow! I LONG
to see His glory, I LONG for His glory, I YEARN
for it.
And here Paul
promises us that WHEN we behold His glory, we'll be changed into
just that - we'll look like His glory. Wow! We look through a mirror
at His glory - who can even look at the sun, and His glory shines
so much more brightly. We do look through a mirror, BUT what do
OUR faces look like? Have we removed everything from our faces that
keep us from seeing? Some people put bags over their faces, and
then wonder why they can't see. Others put on all kinds of glasses
and wonder why they can't see properly. Others want to hide their
faces, and then complain about not seeing. Who will dare to take
everything off - every veil, every bag, all sunglasses, all make-up
to make you look good? Who will give up everything, for the sake
of gazing upon His beauty? Who will make Himself vulnerable and
transparent before Him who knows your heart anyway?
It
is up to you. You decide how well you see. You
decide how close you get. He longs MORE for you to see Him, than
you do to see Him. For years I've cried out to
see His face, for years I've yearned to draw closer to Him, and
for years I've cried out for His glory.
Two weeks ago
I got on a plane to San Diego because I had an appointment with
Him at a conference there. I was so desperate for Him, and knew
He was waiting for me there. I don't care what it takes, I don't
care where I need to go, I just HAVE to have Him. I got so desperate
to meet with Him, I was crying and crying one night, being at the
point of knowing I could not go on a single day without having found
Him. Please don't misunderstand, this was a good kind of desperation.
It was a God-inspired desperation. Did you know that God loves to
play hide-and-seek? He will hide to see whether you will notice
the difference. He will hide to see how much you care. He will hide
to see whether you will seek Him. He will hide to see how hungry
you are for Him. He will hide to see how much you need Him.
I had to have
Him, and after many, many shed tears, I felt so empty, but somewhat
purified, as the only thing left was my deep desire for Him. And
He came. God always responds to hunger. Those who seek Him will
find Him. He first came, giving me a vision about what He was doing
(read it on the blog page here).
And then His glory came like a flood, sweeping me off my feet. I
left the conference in a glory cloud, with the only desire of basking
in His glory, and my greatest desire being to stay in this place,
and not lose it again, even in a dark country like Mali, and even
with the busy-ness of life in Mali.
Nothing compares
to His glory, and no place is better than His glory, His presence.
I want to be transformed into that image - the image of His glory
that shines so brightly, we can only look at it through a mirror.
I love the glory, I love HIM, and I long for all of you to also
live in that place. What keeps you? What is holding you back? Rip
it off your face!
It is a narrow
door that leads into His glory, and it is low. I saw that narrow
door, and the walls around it being transparent, I could somewhat
see the glory on the other side. I stuck my hand through the door,
but I didn't fit through. I so longed to get in! I kept saying,
MORE OF YOU AND LESS OF ME, and I became thinner and thinner, and
so did the door. I still wasn't thin enough. I also became more
and more transparent. Finally, with nothing in my hands, and nothing
visible left, I slipped through the narrow and low door.
The door is
there, for all of us, but it's up to you whether to go in or not.
How hungry are you? Are you willing to lay down those things that
hold you back?
I will, Lord!
Show me those things I hold on to, those things I need to lay down
at your feet. I hunger and thirst for You, I long to see your face!
Show me Your glory, Lord! Whatever it takes, I must have You! Make
me willing to lie down on Your altar, for You to kill me, trusting
that You will also raise me back to life.
MORE
OF YOU AND LESS OF ME!
MY
TIME IN THE US
I left San Diego
Saturday night, and spent the whole night in planes, to preach Sunday
morning in a church in Kansas City. It was so awesome! You can read
the details here.
Then on Wednesday I was invited to a church in Topeka, and again,
I was just overwhelmed and overjoyed by what God did (read it here).
I was also greatly humbled by the kind words that were spoken about
and to me, knowing that it is HIM in me that makes people say those
things - MORE OF HIM AND LESS OF ME!
I just love
loving on Him, and drawing others into His presence with me. I'm
so thankful for the doors He is opening more and more for me, wherever
I go, and the favor I find thanks to His presence. How I wished
that all people would find that intimate place in Him!
I've now been
in the US for four weeks, and they have been four tremendous weeks;
of refreshing, of renewing friendships and making new friends. The
last five nights I have each spent in a different place, but I just
love traveling, going wherever the wind blows.
BACK
HOME
At the same
time I greatly miss my kids back home. Every couple of days I call
them (you can now call Mali from the US for 9 cents a minute - so
call me!), and I just love hearing their voices and talking to them.
They tell me they miss me and love me, and I tell them I miss them
and love them. The other day they told me to come home right away.
Just a few more days! And I'm so very proud of my 18-year-old, Paul,
who is in charge of everything and doing a great job.
The
other day, Fousseni's father showed up at our house. A delicate
situation! It amazes me that he found out about his son being with
us; it seems we've become pretty well-known in our area. He wanted
to know why we had his son without his consent, and Paul explained
to him who we are and what we do. Then they called Fousseni and
asked whether he wanted to go with his father or stay with us. His
father had beaten him up all his life, and not even given him any
more food in the end, which is why he ran away and ended up on the
street. When Fousseni said he wanted to stay with us, his father
said he would sign the paper handing Fousseni over into our care.
BUILDING
PROJECT UPDATE
Last week I
flew to Augusta, GA, to meet with the architect Peter, a wonderful
Christian man who had expressed interest in helping us out. I had
an awesome time with him and his family, and we had quality time
"talking business". We brainstormed, and at 1 am I had
the inspiration to arrange everything the way you see it to the
right. I'm really excited when I look at what God is gonna raise
up!
The first building
phase will include my house, as well as Seybou's and the one for
Paul's family (Albino). Peter is doing the drawings for us. This
is gonna be the most urgent one time-wise, because once completed
it will allow us to move and save lots of money on rent and utilities.
Our goal is to move before the start of the rainy season next year
(May 2007).
Please pray
for favor with God's people as well as those in
the world (some potentially great contacts have been made), that
those meant to invest into our oasis will not hold back.
Pray also for
the authorities in Mali. We need the property papers
to come through as soon as possible, so that construction can start.
SEND
THE WORKERS!
One of my cries
to the Lord has been for workers. The harvest is so ready, the task
so huge, but I lack the people who simply love God with a passion
and use all their talents for His glory. If you want to come for
2 weeks, 2 months, 2 years or the rest of your life, please contact
me. Everyone is welcome and needed!
My dear friends,
old and new, I want to bless you as you continue your day:
May you
behold His glory day by day, and may you be changed into that which
you behold. May His glory consume you, so that nothing but His glory
will be left to be seen in You. May you become more like Him, changed
from glory to glory to glory to glory...
All HIS,
Claudia
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